Holidaze

What a holiday season. My husband's father took a turn for the worse and went home on hospice a week before Christmas. My husband had to go, .they have had differences but my huband went anyway. His Dad said something about Christmas when my husband got there but he thought nothing of it. Not knowing or realizing the power of the mind. His Dad hung on till Christmas day, the last 24 hours were agonizing I'm sure, everyone sitting around counting his breaths because he had lost consciousness. I can't imagine. This was my husband's first encounter with death. I can't imagine how awful it was for him because I have only seen it from a nurse's view. As a nurse,I hope for a peaceful ending, the quicker the better. Especially if the patient is unconscious,the family are the ones suffering. I was asleep in my bed when my father passed away 20 years ago from lung cancer. Is it fate that my husband had to deal with cancer in hus father as I did? Is it fate that we both had a parent die on Christmas? I was on my first travel assignment in Denver and worked on Christmas Day when I got the phone call that my Mother had passed. It's ironic. Most of my family are here in Oklahoma for the holidays, except for my husband. It should be a joyous time. I truly believe everything happens for a reason, you may not know the reason right away, but it will become clear in the days to come. Sorry if this post bummed any of you out...that was not my intention. Just to give some incite into the life of a nurse. I worked 8 hours today and am going back for 12 hours tomorrow...God willing. Remember, first do no harm.